Tuesday, May 1

I feel so blue this evening..

I don't know why, but I feel so blue tonight. I had the most wonderful day at work, we laughed and had fun. And made lots of things. But now I feel kinda blue. I visited my parents this evening and they were just sitting in front of the telly while I was talking.. But I could easily talk just to myself, they didn't listen to anything. I felt quite sad when I left my parents a moment ago. I took a walk on the beach, but my mind was still feeling blue.
I'm so glad I've got this blog and my friends. But noone was picking up the phone when I called them for company. I just have to get this off my chest, it helps to just be honest with my emotions. I know when I feel sad that something is wrong. It never lasts long this blue feeling. But I'd rather feel my rainbow, like I always do. Maybe we just need some rain, in order to see the rainbow.
Well, tomorrow will be fun again..
Here's a little drawing I made with my paint and my brush..

I almost never feel sad, so I know it will go away after a good night sleep..
And maybe watch Johny Darko again, my favorite sad movie.
In a way I feel like crying, maybe I'll just do that, just let go of this negative feeling which doesn't belong to me.


  1. Dear Blue Boy,

    Yep, you gotta feel the blues to feel the rainbow, and so it goes! and here is an Anais Nin quote to fit your mood:

    "Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death." Anais Nin

    My fav blue movie is Beastmaster - always makes me feel better in a weird sort of way...

    hugs! i know you will be smiling tomorrow!

    xox eva

    PS i cried today! maybe we are on the same blue wavelength! course, i had a reason but, there it is!

  2. Aw... I hope you feel better now.

    Sometimes people just need a little bit of misery to dwell in. The sun can't shine all the time, because then you wouldn't realize it's special. You just have to cry while you watch your sad movie, listen to your sad songs and wait for it to pass.

    Next time, just ask your parents if they can turn off the tv and come sit outside now the weather's so nice.

  3. I was sick and blue last night, maybe beyond blue, but very happy now to be back in California. I've run from and embraced blue, in its literal and metaphysical terms, for years.

    I love this quote from Rebecca Solnit on "The Blue of the Distance":
    "The world is blue at its edges and in its depths. This blues is the light that got lost. Light at the blue end of the spectrum does not travel the whole distrance from the sun to us. It disperses among the molecules of the air, it scatters in water. Water is colorless, shallow water appears to be the color of whatever lies underneath it, but deep water is full of this scattered light, the purere the water the deeper the blue."

    Anyway, I hope you feel better now. I guess the point is blue is less about where we are but about what is in the distance that we see through clear waters.